"Happy Birthday" means much more
Than having a happy day.
Within these words lie lots of things
I never get to say.
It means I love you first of all,
Then thanks for all you've done.
It also means that you mean a lot to me,
And that I'm proud of you.

But most of all, I guess it means
That I am thinking of
Your happiness on this, your day,
With pleasure and with love, baby brother <3

Random pictures taken at T3 when we all went to fetch Hamdan back from Wallaby.

At the moment, life is unpredictable. Somehow or rather certain things are not at its normal right angles not to mention most things have even started to take its toll on me. I'm someone who doesn't really allow small issues to corrupt the mind but how come someone managed to crawl in and disrupt my daily activities? Plus I don't understand why some people (including me) still choose to simply believe that everything happens for a reason. Bottomline, where is the explanation to this? Why haven't anyone reason out so and so happens or conclude something not based on assumptions?

Thing is, I am really sick and tired of giving in to years of unresolved conflicts, past mistakes, recent arguments and more lazy to bother dragging things into the future. Simply said, I just want the drama to end without any hard feelings. I know that I've to blow my huge ego aside first and sincerely try but obviously, I don't have it enough in me to spark this trip off. Sorry but now it's your turn now to burn sleepless night.

Goodbye, for now.

Well honestly, I think it's possible to love someone and still be curious about someone else which somehow I think you should still be able to act on that impulse without impunity. Back in our society, where monogamy rules despite all the evidence that it doesn't work, a person is demonized for wanting to break from the traditional model of relationships. I seriously think you can love someone, truly love them, and still be drawn to someone else. Enough to want to kiss that other person, just to see what it would be like. Or maybe to help confirm that what you've got is better that what else is out there. Because isn't the desire alone already a form of betrayal? So what further harm does it do to put those thoughts into action? Ideally, you would be able just to go back to the person you love after you've kissed that other person and discovered it wasn't as interesting as you thought it would be, which I would imagine would be the case most of the time and in the event that it is unexpectedly amazing, isn't it better to have experienced that moment of bliss rather than imagine what it could have been like?

Anyway, didn't realised you're lacking of my attention and I'm sorry for acting like a bitch these passed few days. Thing is, I don't know why you kept assuming those things not to mention even having nightmares about me and some of my very close guy friends. I'm getting pretty sick hearing all that bull coming out from your mouth and if you think your point wasn't there yet then at the very least, try to state your claim properly. For all you know, you're just insecure and you're too damn egoistic to even admit that.

There might be better ways to spend a Saturday night, but at this moment, I couldn't think of a single one. No doubt watching Zombieland with Firus cheered me up a little.

Goodnight!

Simply don't understand why some people have ulterior motives and enjoy the feel of other's downfall. Whatever we shared was beyond reason, beyond promises, beyond words okay? All we know is that we both believed that everything's possible again. But then again, how am I supposed to know what you want when you always bottle up your feelings? I've told you time and again, if you resent some of my actions, come and talk to me about it. Not when things are failing and then you expect me to be a mind reader. I don't have magic powers and I certainly don't wish to even start having some now.

On a lighter note, Fayzan woke me up few hours back and now I can't get back to sleep again. I'm so looking forward to go over my Grandma's place and back Kallang to visit Atok and I hope some people whom I haven't been seeing for a long time, will be there. Surprise, surprise~ Hanis is back! Action is more louder than words people, bear that in mind.

Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all my Muslim friends!!

Sorry for not updating. I've practically been busy juggling hours doing so many things at once that I just can't find any more time on my hands to update until now. Anyway, life has been great! Work is getting more fun each day since two of my closest friends have started working with me. On a lighter note, Fayzan's all grown up now, he can already walk and spending nights with Firus after my hectic day made it all the more worthwhile. We still have our petty fights ocassionally but we always made it up eventually. Not to mention weekends are especially sacred to us! Vists to Kallang then Firus's Grandfather's place before meeting up the rest for hang outs certainly keep our social life pretty much active. I thank God that I'm blessed and may this continue blissfully in the days to come. Actually I don't know what more to blog because there's just so much to say! Seriously. And oh yea, I've been doing alot of contemplation lately about my own life and certain close ones are well up to date.

I'm rushing my train of thoughts now cause I've still got plenty of things to get done by tonight. Will post again soon alright? Goodnight.

Super busy with preparations for Fayzan's birthday party now. But promise you I'll update more, soon. That is if I'm not lazy of cause! Really looking forward to this evening though. Hopefully, everything will run out as planned. And almost forgot to mention that mom bought me E63 limited edition phone last Sunday. Definitely love the phone but i hate the camera cause the quality sucked. Okay whatever! I still need to get some last minute stuffs at Point and go collect food from various places. Siti will be coming in about two hours? HAHA. Omg! I left out balloons and some other kids stuff. Gotta run now.

Bye!

Hi good morning! I was woken up by... something. Became aware of red glow beyond window. Sunrise? Instinctively knew it was still too early. For a moment, I wondered if the sun has decided to pop it's head back up over the horizon so that it can do another encore sunset, seeing as people like me are so pleased with it first time round. Realised it was only seven in the morning and Siti has just left for work. To think I thought I was working today too. -_______- Tried tossing from side to side to get back to sleep but to no avail. Am now officially awake. Urggggggggh.

Sleeping Sunday Mission failed. Double F! Since am so wide awake now, guessed I better spring clean my room and try to get Fayzan's birthday party packs done. Then hopefully I can meet the rest in the evening! I miss hanging out. It's as though my social life has been cut off lately. Just want to remind you guys, time is precious.

Bye all.